Monday, May 07, 2007
Thought today is going to be quite awkward for both of us but luckily the both of us managed to act as if nothing has happened. Anyway had a nice long talk with him on our way back home last friday. Felt kinda relieved after the talk cos i have been bottling up all the things inside me and i really felt miserable. Worst of all i just get to know from my senior colleague that the seniors are already suspecting something wrong with us. Its jus that the situation is getting from bad to worst. Sooner or later everyone is going to know whats happening so i think its the best for the two of us to talk it out.
Told him everything is a misunderstanding afterall but he insisted that there is no misunderstanding or in fact nothing at all. We are always that good but i knew he is hiding from reality. There is no point hiding anymore cos i believe only deep inside us knows what's happening. Moreover, things arent going to work out. I just want to pull myself out of this situation cos i am tired or shall i say its a blessing in disguise that i actually see his true colours. Anyway managed to pluck up enough courage to ask him what actually happened and i simply told him that all the while i only treated him as a colleague, as a friend, as a big brother and nothing else and i really hope that he wouldnt make things complicated cos isnt it nice for us to remain as colleagues and good friends? He was very quiet after hearing my words or shall i say the period was very awkward. I dont know whether have i hurt him or whatever but he did looked a bit upset. However, i still believe its still best for us to remain as good friends.
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