Wednesday, May 30, 2007
It looks like work has became increasingly unbearable for the people in my lab cos all of a sudden four of my colleagues are having thoughts of resigning of which two have already comfirmed that they are leaving while the other two are still toying with the thoughts. Anyway work is like what jas described in her blog. I am also doing the same thing too but as for the counting down to knocking off time, i got L and uncle phua as the time keepers cos they got this habit of popping into my processing room once in a while to inform us the hours left to 5.30pm. Haha
Anyway yesterday was quite an interesting day. Watched shrek 3 with my colleagues after work at tiong bahru plaza. Well It wasnt as nice as what i have expected, think Shrek is too much of a fairy tale thingy and the whole story line is so smoothing till i nearly fall asleep. Think i still prefer pirates of the carribean esp with the johnny depp's wicked humor. Haha
An unexpected guest also came to my workplace yesterday. And guess who... Well its B yang ( i hope to see adrian yeo or even shirlena soh instead). Yes dont be too surprised. Its him! I was quite surprised to see him too but luckily he cant recognise me. haha Got to knoe from a colleague that he's here to recruit part time cytology lecturers. So looks like being a cytoscreener is not bad too cos u still gain a chance to be lecturers in future. Haha
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Sunday, May 27, 2007
Its my sis's birthday today so dad treated us to Sakura buffet at Jurong west sports complex. Quite contradictory to eat there cos people usually go there to exercise but we are there to stuff ourselves. Haha Yea anyway stuffed till i felt that puking. Think my appetite kinda shrinked a lot compared to last time whereby i can really eat a lot. As for my sis's present, bought her a bag from converse which costed me 60 bucks. She's lucky that i just got my pay so i can afford to dig "deeper" into my pocket.
Anyway things are back to track again. But i still havent recieve any reply from MOE yet.... Dont knoe whether do i still stand a chance or not.
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Saturday, May 19, 2007
Lots of things have been going on recently and I am really tired of it. Yearns for a holiday but my mum kept giving me excuses.. be it money or some other probs. Anyway think i am quite naive in the past. I used to look at things only on the surface without considering the underlying problems. But as time goes by, i began to realise that life isn't a bed of roses afterall, there will definetely be ups and downs.
Went for the interview but till now there is no reply yet. Anyway dont think there will be any chances. Expected that outcome ever since i stepped out of the interview room. Its just that i wanted the letter to close up the entire stuff.
Looking at the things now. It looks like i am once again being cornered at the end. The only path left is to stay in the lab and in the meanwhile take up a part time degree. But what about the money. Where can i find the money for the tution fees? Talked to a senior colleague about it and she kinda hints that if i decided to take up a part time degree, i should might as well stay in processing cos screening can be very straining for the eyes and moreover i got to study in the evening. But doesnt that means that i got to stay in processing for the next few years..... No way... i want to learn something else.. why are the people out there denying my learning oppotunity.
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Sunday, May 13, 2007
i used to believe fate lies in our hands and we have the ability to control our lives but it seems that its time for me to change my perspective on life. Things somehow can really be fated. Seeing what have happened to him let me feel that life can be very vunerable and fragile. We should try to live to the very best of our lives cos things can be very unexpected, in a split second u may actually find urself on the hospital bed.
I mean its contradictory. On one hand, i am trying my very best to distance myself but on the other hand we kept bumping into each other to the extend that we met each other at jp thrice for 3 consecutive days. And looking at what had happened to him, i was kinda hurt. Although he may be disgusting and irritating in the past, i jus cant bear myself seeing him in such a state of which then i realised that i actually treasured our friendship very well.
For one thing is that i got to apologise to mun for spoiling her day. Its wasnt expected and that time i was caught in the middle. One is my buddy whom i have known her since sec sch and promised to watch the movie with her of which we even bought the tickets already and the other is my colleague and friend whom is in critically sick and i got to bring him to seek medical attention asap. But at least i am at ease that i actually send the latter to hospital cos i just cant leave him in a lurch. As for mun, i really got to thank her for being such a understanding friend.
Anyway i agreed with what jas told me, what goes around comes around. Its afterall a good deed done.
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Monday, May 07, 2007
Thought today is going to be quite awkward for both of us but luckily the both of us managed to act as if nothing has happened. Anyway had a nice long talk with him on our way back home last friday. Felt kinda relieved after the talk cos i have been bottling up all the things inside me and i really felt miserable. Worst of all i just get to know from my senior colleague that the seniors are already suspecting something wrong with us. Its jus that the situation is getting from bad to worst. Sooner or later everyone is going to know whats happening so i think its the best for the two of us to talk it out.
Told him everything is a misunderstanding afterall but he insisted that there is no misunderstanding or in fact nothing at all. We are always that good but i knew he is hiding from reality. There is no point hiding anymore cos i believe only deep inside us knows what's happening. Moreover, things arent going to work out. I just want to pull myself out of this situation cos i am tired or shall i say its a blessing in disguise that i actually see his true colours. Anyway managed to pluck up enough courage to ask him what actually happened and i simply told him that all the while i only treated him as a colleague, as a friend, as a big brother and nothing else and i really hope that he wouldnt make things complicated cos isnt it nice for us to remain as colleagues and good friends? He was very quiet after hearing my words or shall i say the period was very awkward. I dont know whether have i hurt him or whatever but he did looked a bit upset. However, i still believe its still best for us to remain as good friends.
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