Tuesday, January 09, 2007
First i got to apologize that my blog is going to be a depressing one. I've been feeling very depressed recently but think i got to overcome it as soon as possible. Dont think its nice to be so depressed at the start of a new year rite.
Been reflecting on my life recently. Well i can say my life is in a total mess, it looks like majority of the things that happen to me are beyond my means. Think i am total failure, in terms of educucation, i dont have a proper education path other than the poly diploma, in terms of BGR, dont have boyfriend and in terms of finances, i am a poor bloke. Anyway, its a complicated feeling, complicated to the extend that i dont even knoe how to put it into words but i just felt that I am losing control over my life....
Was having a chat with him just now. It looks like things that he planned intially wasnt going smoothly as well (his dreams of having his lab just tarnished) and he has decided to go back after obtaining the cert to settle down. Well.. i have no comments. It looks like each of us have our own plans. In 4 years time, he is going to be med tech at his hometown with perhaps a kid in tow and a caring wife by the side and as for me, most probably i am going to be a aspiring teacher or perhaps i may be overseas once again to further my studies. Anyway no one will knoe what will exactly happen in 4 years time....
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