Monday, September 04, 2006
This society is forever discriminating and this is how i felt when i saw differences in treatment between a diploma holder and a honours degree holder. First i got to give up my seat to the person cos i was told that i am only a processor spending most of my time in the processing lab and furthermore a processor does not need a microscope. Then that person only need to read the protocol on the first few days of work whereas i am already slogging my heart out on my first day of work. Lastly is during the introduction part, i was introduced as the youngest in the lab cos i am
only a poly graduate. Mind u its the ONLY word again. I hate that word!
I dont understand why am i leading such a miserable life. Should life been better if i were to go JC straight after my "O" levels since my result is eligible enough for me to get into a JC science course. I regretted what i did.
Todae a colleague asked why i bother to work a few years before i pursue my further studies, might as well take up a part time degree locally. However, i strongly disagreed to that suggestion cos studying to me is a pleasure in life. i would love to have a condusive environment for me to immerse totally into the joy of research and studying instead of having to juggle both work and studies stress. At the same time i was also thinking of the teachers' bond but it was very disappointing of my family for being such a wet blanket. All of them dont support my dream of becoming a teacher at all! All they could think of is the compensation that i got to repay of i were to break my bond. Anyway its my life, i should have control over what i want do because i have just realised that reality is a very cruel thing, the dream of me going overseas seem to drift further away from me.
I am sick and tired, very tired.
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