Yesterdae was a extremely busy day cos it was peppered with meetings and talks and of course followed by lots of specimens. Of all the meetings i attended, it just gave me the idea that the pple working there loves to retort back their views on whether its good or bad which makes the whole meeting sounds a bit aggressive. Anyway thats only my point of view cos i had never experienced such a "hot" meeting before.
Although i wasn't really concerned about the issues being discussed during the meeting, there is something which i wasn't really happy about. Cos we were told not to talk so much in the processing lab. Reasons being, firstly, we are going to take in lots of xylene filled air and second, having a conversation is going to affect our level of concentration thus increasing the level of risk of mixing up specimens. Its kind of ridiculous not to talk rite. Sometimes talking can helps the colleagues to form a closer bond in return we will able to enjoy a better partnership and secondly having conversation can also help to destress rite. Just imagine going into a lab filled with all the dull faced people of which i think sooner or later, my lab is going to become like one. Anyway we also had no choice but to keep quiet so the other colleagues are kind of making fun of us. Saying things like: " funny rite! Talk for 1 month then todae last day cannot talk!"
Anyway yesterdae was quite a sad day too cos it marks the end of our month long partnership. From the start of nxt month, i am going to partner with a senior personnel and i cannot talk somemore. Think i am going to become a mute soon. Oh god! I am starting to see the true colours of the person. She wasnt really that nice afterall!
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Thursday, September 28, 2006
This week is so dramatic. Dramatic in the sense that it's not something nice. First there is some bad blood in the lab resulting in a conflict which for no apparent reason, i was kind of interwined into it. Life being a sandwhich wasnt good. I wanted to remain neutral but things always caught me in the middle.
Although i was warned of the "looming clouds and unforseen thunderstorm" in the lab, i didnt really take it into matter until that very day when i saw someone blowing his top. Anyway it was my first time seeing him being so agitated and i must admit that the scene tarnished my good impression of him. I often think that one mustn't lose his or her cool cos that split second of violent action is going to tarnish your reputation. Ever since i started working, i always kept the word "endurance" deep inside my heart. This is because the working society is throat cutting, everyone is at the throat of each of them. If we aren't able to endure such a tiny thing, how am i able to protect and survive in such a throat cutting environment.
Nowadays, it seems that everyone is grumbling and complaining about each other of which sooner or later, someone will definetely say something about me. Anyway, I dont care for goodness sake!
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Friday, September 22, 2006
Todae was a extremely bad day. Early in the morning, i was already nagged by my dept head and she kept questioning us about the missing boxes of gloves. Its like #%>?#% who wants ur gloves???? Then had free lunch treat by some docs cos he got promoted. But the lunch was the worst lunch of all. First the atmosphere was so tense that we didnt really dare to talk to each other and there is no proper pantry to eat in hence we got to eat on the tables with the microscopes. Yucky issit.
Finally to add oil to the fire, my colleague was down with diarrhoea thus i got to cover part of his duties. Then one of the doctors stormed in and screamed at us for assigning the case to her. Just imagine u are already so busy and there is this drilling pain in the head when someone was "screaming" away in the lab. Frankly speaking, at that point of time, i nearly wanted to tell them to shut their mouths.
Anyway the worst part of all is getting to know that my mum is resigning cos her dept head scolded her in front of all her colleagues and she was kinda challenging my mum. My mum seldom cried but this time round i saw her crying so i think it may be best for her to resign since working life is already so unbearable.
This society is getting more and more disgusting. I am sick of everything. How nice would it be to have a person to console with.
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Thursday, September 21, 2006
Of all the days in this week, today is perhaps the most interesting day cos the specimens were streaming in at a steady pace which kept us occupied for the time being. In the meanwhile, my colleague showed us a pap smear slide. Initially he kept insisting us to guess wats in the pap smear. However it turns out that the mysterious and special cells are sperms. Not funny rite.
Maybe i have seen live and swimming ones during my attachment thus i dont really find it very surprising but for the others esp the attachment students, they were so thrilled to find sperms in pap smear. Anyway the slide was really flooded with sperms so we literally got cheeky of what the patient did before she got her pap smear done esp since the patient is already quite old. Btw the student wasnt really aware of whats happening so my colleague and i explained to her what excactly happened and she was embarassed upon learning the reason. Haha censored! censored!
Anyway tmr is fri. Hurray the wkend is near!
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Glad that everything seems to get back to normal except for some occasional teasing. Anyway this week is a super "boring" week, boring in the sense that there are very little samples. But at the same time i can't comment on things like "aiyo.. so boring, why aren't there any samples at all or its so boring, can someone give me something to do". This is because the lab pple are quite "pantang". They always believe that if u were to say this things out, all samples will come last minute at 5.20pm just before u were about to leave. In the end, u got to work OT.
Prepared haematoxylin stain todae. Nope. Not those conventional ones whereby u just need to mix bottle A and bottle B with distilled water. The one we are using required thorough boiling of the mixture and rippening of the staining solution for a few days in a dark corner before we can use it. Although it was quite tedious, preparation of stains can be quite fun too. Just like what ms phoon told us, preparation of stains is like cooking cos u need to follow the "recipe" and add the ingredients accordingly.
Anyway its the middle of the week again but i got to work on saturday and alone somemore in the processing lab. Working on saturday can be quite challenging cos i got to work independently and moreover i got to do everything by myself...Hee
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
As time passes by, it just gave me the feeling that things are getting complicated around me. I missed the chit chatting and liveliness of the lab. All of sudden, there is this coldness and awkwardness that lingers in the air. Perhaps it may be me to blame as I have no idea that my act of kindness would cause him develop some misunderstandings.
i was shocked by the sudden action cos i had no experiences in BGR before. However, I simply brushed the question away because i knew it is not the time yet. As I am still young, career and studies should be playing a more important role. Settling down at this age was never on my mind.
Anyway, I am loss for words. i have no idea that this type of thing happened at this time round. I just want to concentrate in my career...
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
Working life is getting busier especially since i gained "independence" from my trainer. Was given the chance to screen cell yield and quality of the Diff Quik Stain of which sometimes i can even see malignant cells. However it was kinda contradictory because on one hand the malignant cells with extra large nucleus can be quite interesting to see, but on the other hand, i felt quite sad for the patients especially those with terminal stage cancer.
Anyway was chatting with my group of colleagues when someone suddenly mentioned about his personal life and how he got cheated by a stranger who claims that her mother is stricken with cancer and she needs a huge sum of money for her mother's medical expenses. However he put all the blame on him being a single man (with no one by his side to remind him its a cheat) of which later he mentioned something which i find it rather offending. Anyway i knew its suppose to be a comment that was not to be taken too seriously but I just felt that its weird to bring up ur personal life to someone whom u have just knoe for less than 2 months.
Anyway think my best companions are the attachment students, probably because of our age gap, we share the same topics of interest. At least now there are these students to help out, i am wondering how will life be without these students there to help me out and also to chat up with.
Working life is sophisicated. How i wish i can always be a student...
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Hokkien Version of Huang Hun
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Monday, September 04, 2006
This society is forever discriminating and this is how i felt when i saw differences in treatment between a diploma holder and a honours degree holder. First i got to give up my seat to the person cos i was told that i am only a processor spending most of my time in the processing lab and furthermore a processor does not need a microscope. Then that person only need to read the protocol on the first few days of work whereas i am already slogging my heart out on my first day of work. Lastly is during the introduction part, i was introduced as the youngest in the lab cos i am only a poly graduate. Mind u its the ONLY word again. I hate that word!
I dont understand why am i leading such a miserable life. Should life been better if i were to go JC straight after my "O" levels since my result is eligible enough for me to get into a JC science course. I regretted what i did.
Todae a colleague asked why i bother to work a few years before i pursue my further studies, might as well take up a part time degree locally. However, i strongly disagreed to that suggestion cos studying to me is a pleasure in life. i would love to have a condusive environment for me to immerse totally into the joy of research and studying instead of having to juggle both work and studies stress. At the same time i was also thinking of the teachers' bond but it was very disappointing of my family for being such a wet blanket. All of them dont support my dream of becoming a teacher at all! All they could think of is the compensation that i got to repay of i were to break my bond. Anyway its my life, i should have control over what i want do because i have just realised that reality is a very cruel thing, the dream of me going overseas seem to drift further away from me.
I am sick and tired, very tired.
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
Well well well it has been 1 month since i started working. I must say working life can be quite dull cos it looks like everyday is following a 8.30a.m. to 6 p.m. routine. Anyway grateful that ch is working in sgh and andrea is also working in HPB which is opposite my building and that means that i got two more lunching mate muhahaha.
Work is more stablised now cos i am more aware of the procedures and things that is happening around me. Anyway there is something which i dont whether its a bad or good news, i was told that i have "graduated" and my trainer will be transfered out to do cytoscreening while i will remain in the processing lab working with another new person. Its good news cos i can learn to be more independent and maybe i can learn even more things. On the other hand, bad news becos i am already used to my trainer's working style, it can be quite frustrating to learn from fresh of another person's working style.
Anyway, started working with the new partner yesterday, everything just felt awkward cos i seldom talk to him and so the whole processing lab became very quiet. However i got to count myself lucky again cos at least i got to learn new things such as screening for cancerous cells, differentiating all the different type of cells found in different specimen (for example u will see squamous cells from bladder and urothelial cells in urine specimens)and also crystals for gouts which looks like reflecting needles under the polarised microscope. I can say things are getting quite interesting except that i still feels giddy after looking into the microscope for quite some time.
I still dont know whether i really enjoyed working in a cyto lab but i think time will show.
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Its only you
& no one else
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
