Monday, July 31, 2006
I was munching my way through the bottle of Abalone flavoured Macadamia nuts bought from Melbourne when my mum suddenly mentioned that the bottle of nuts is from her colleague whose niece just flown to Melbourne to pursue a degree in Biomedical sciences in Uni of Melbourne. At that point of time, i was wondering what was my mum's intention by telling me all these out of blue.
Anyway, she continued talking without giving me a chance to speak up. I was told that her colleague's niece graduated with a diploma in Medical Technology which is somehow similar to us except that hers is Cardiac tech. And after graduation, she was offered a job in the SGH to work as a cardiac tech. Throughout two years, she worked as a cardiac tech in the day and gave tution in the night in order to save enough money for her further studies. Everything seems to be sailing so smoothly and lady luck simply smiled at her again. This time round, two doctors (one in his 30s and the other one in his late 20s) are wooing her but she chose the latter whom is a Pediatrician and now the both of them are going to Melbourne together for further studies.
I was also told that her colleague's niece used to be a chubby girl with dark complexion but she managed to slim down a lot by cutting down on all the oily food stuffs after enrolling into the cardiac tech course as she learned that all the fats will one day eventually accumulate in her arteries leading to unforseen circumstances.
After listening to my mum's nagging cum gossips for the past 5 minutes, I just replied:" So? U envy issit? Are u trying to hint something?". Although my mum kept claiming that she is not trying to hint anything, i knew she is trying to say that i'm too fat and maybe career downhill and hurdles attributed to that fact that i'm big in size.
Anyway, the story seems to be too perfect to be true, its more like a fairytale or perhaps her colleague's niece is destined to have such a perfect life.. I just believed that everyone one of us has our own rightful path in life, there is no point envying people. Most importantly is to curve my way to a bright future and even if im trying to slim down. I am not going to slim down to the fact that will become more attractive to the opposite sexes. Its all about having a healthy lifestyle! How i wish my mum wont nag at me anymore.. Sian*
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Sometimes i can't help but have the feeling that i am a total failure. I am uncertain of my future and i have no idea why my life is in such a mess. I admit that i am the kind of person whom will plan for my future. However, it seems that life is playing a trick on me. Everything seems to be in the reverse and they dont really turn out of what i expected.
My cousin used to tell me that heaven is always fair. A person with tight body will likely to look rather ugly or plain and likewise a person with a pretty face will have a bad figure. But to me its seems to be untrue. Neither do I have a pretty face nor tight figure. Although things are already looking quite bad for me, uncertainty of my future and the inability to secure myself a job and a place in local university are adding salt to my wound.
Day after day i saw people around me discussing about their university orientation experiences, their work experiences, relatives and neighbours boasting about how well their children perform in school of which some even asked me what am i doing now or which university i got into and things like that.. However, i'm too embarassed to say a word because i dont have a place to study in local uni and i cant even find myself a job. When i saw news reporters interviewing those recent graduates from NTU, it somehow makes me feel jealous but at the same time envy.. Maybe i can be one of them if i chose the JC route and till now i am still wondering whether i made a good choice. Maybe if i will to go to a JC instead, life will be easier. Anyway, it hurts...
I am tired, really tired... I dont understand why are there so many hurdles in my life. I am not a greedy person, neither do i wish to strike big in lottery nor inherit a huge sum of money from people. I just wish for a decent job. One that enables me to save for my further studies.
I dont understand why people loves to make empty promises. I am sick of it. If all my follow ups have been dragging for a long time and u cant afford to wait anymore, i will be glad that u can frankly inform me. Dont keep me waiting! I am sick of waiting, its making me feel like a useless person. I am sick of life! Really.
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Thursday, July 20, 2006
I knew my months of agony and despair is finally going to be over when i saw the expression on the doctor's face. Had an appointment with the doctor at the National Heart Centre yesterday. And yea, its a relieve to hear that there is nothing wrong with me. Without much facial expression, the doctor just simply apologised by saying: " Well its good. (Pause*) Your test results are very normal. (Long Pause*) I'm sorry that you have to make so many trips down here. I cant find anything wrong with you so i guess you are just born with fast heart beat. My nurse will issue you a copy of the medical report and you are discharged from here." When i take a look at the medical report, it states that im suffering from sinus tachycardia with infrequent atrial ectopics but within normal limits of which my slowest heartbeat recorded was 56bpm and fastest was 146 bpm but all were within normal range.
At the point of time, I was feeling happy and yet angry with the doctor. I'm wondering does he know that his signature and a statement on the tests order form had stopped me from working for 3 months of which i nearly lost my job and also the loss of my 3 months of salary? However, i can say this can be a blessing in disguise cos next time when i look for jobs, i no longer need to undergo this tests anymore and i can declare that this is just a congenitial condition. Anyway, submitted the medical report to the staff clinic straight after the appointment and hope i can hear good news from them soon. Cross my fingers*
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Friday, July 14, 2006
Read the Straits Times Life!Music Colummn this morning and this is what the music commentor wrote about Steve Chou's latest album:-
Commercial,no doubt, but still highly respectable, are the lastest batch of ballads from Steve Chou. Detractors are wont to point out that he seems to create from a template that has his indelible stamp all over the material.
Those in his camp would retort that this merely reflects a consistency of quality, which is not an unfair rebuttal.
The title trcak of his new CD builds in the "Ode To Joy" riff from Beethoven's Ninth Symphony - a tacky and oft-employed method of working a classical motif into a pop nugget which has been catching on big time in China and Taiwan.
Still, the somg scores, especially with Chou's sensitive singing and delivery.
To his credit, the rest of Happiness Etudes plays on seamlessly and is likely to spawn a few more hits.....
Well as a avid fan of his, i have absolutely no comments because i also hope that he can inject more surprises in his ballads instead of the repetitive same old melody of songs that seems to follow a template. It can be quite boring rite. Hope that there will be English or even Cantonese ballads protraited in his next album. Hee
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Monday, July 10, 2006
Its been reported in the news that there was a sudden surge of people down with flu for the past few months. But since its the world cup period, its understandable rite. Haha Just take my dad as an example, the self proclaimed strongest person in my family has fallen sick! Yea... all thanks to the late night matches that he has been watching for the past few weeks.
Been smelling durians in the middle of the night for the past few weeks and i think i am going to be intoxicated by durian soon cos my aunt's friend just went to johor and brought us a sackful of durians (think there are around 18 durians in that bag) and my whole house stinks like hell. And thats my dad's snack to goes with the world cup final early this morning too. So imagine the stench of durian that u first breathe in when u wake up in the morning...
By the way talking of world cup, i expected France to win cos maybe they are more experienced in the sense that they won the world cup before. But anyway dont think i have the right to predict cos i am a self confessed football idiot to the extent that i wasnt even interested in watching any of the matches.
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Friday, July 07, 2006
Sometimes i am very irritated by my mum's college. It seems tat they love to gossip about other people and now they are gossiping about me. I was told by my mum that one of the lady bus drivers came to her office and (my mum is working in one of the bus companies) complained to her that i am being very unfriendly and somehow arrogant. Its like Wat the hell! What have i done wrong?
I knew this aunt for being the one whom will always tell my sis and i not to tap the ezlink card cos she knoe my mum. My sis will always smile back and she wouldn't tap the card but i told myself i'm not going to do that. To me its like although my mum is working in the company, i dont like to be associated as my mum's daughter. I would prefer to keep a low profile and pay my bus fare. So in that case whenever i board the auntie's bus, i will always kinda "hide" behind other fellow passengers, tap and try to sneak into the bus as fast as possible. And in the end i was called arrogant and unfriendly.
Oh well since she likes to complain so much, i am going to make her pay for her own mistake. Dont expect me to smile at her and i will make sure i write in to complain about her slightest mistake!
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Thursday, July 06, 2006
From the moving of CLS to the new building to the replacement of the odd plastic security booth to a classy glass one... Its just a mere 3 months but i noticed the surrounding in SP changed quite a bit. Attended the graduation ceremony yesterdae. Its a nice feeling to go back to school and to meet up with the ex classmates and the lecturers cos school to me is always a nice place to be in.
The ceremony was shorter than i expected but there were throngs and throngs of students lining up to go on stage to recieve their diploma scroll. Kinda pitied the director cos he got to shake hands and take photos with thousands of students. Think his eyes is going to be blinded by the camera flash light. LOL
Anyway reached school first at about 8.15am as my mum and aunt needed some additional time to dress and make up. Met mc, yc and ch and the trio of us proceeded to the convention hall but we were later seperated as we were allocated different seat numbers which was rather far apart.
I was rather nervous when we were queuing up to go up stage cos i am worried that i may trip and fall on the stage of which i cant imagine the consequences. Luckily everything went smoothly except the live video telecast. Its making everyone's faces look so bloody bloated and fat. OMG! Just imagine your bloody fat face is on 3 mega TV screens. And my mum and aunt kept saying i look so fat on the screen and my face nearly covered the whole screen. Its like hey its not my fault rite. Everyone will definetely look much fatter on TV and to add salt to my wound, my mum even commented that i looked like a king kong on stage. I really regretted inviting my mum to school cos she got endless comments as if she is so pretty herself!
Anyway its kinda surprising to see mr fraser and adrian yeo in suit but we didnt really met up with some other lecturers. Luckily we still manage to take a class picture with ms phoon. Hope the picture will turn out well. As the sun was scorching hot and ch and yc feets were so painful, we just took some pictures and left for lunch. Lunch was followed by karaoke singing at K box. And yea thats how we celebrated our graduation day.
Graduation day may marks the end of our poly life however i still wish to go back. Although my ultimate dream is to be a lecturer, there is still a far away route ahead of me cos i still need to work hard to save for my further studies first...
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Yippee Hurray! Tomorrow is the day! After slogging for 3 years, i can finally officially graduate from Singapore Polytechnic. I am sooooooooooooo excited. Dont think i can sleep well tonight.
Anyway, just hope tmr everyone of us can get to enjoy ourselves to our fullest and no one especially the lecturers will ask me abt the damm employment thingy. Hee
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Monday, July 03, 2006
Accompanied my parents to the market near my house for some incense papers before we head to temple for my late uncle's death anniversary prayers and guess who i saw! Remember Mr Ngiam who taught us computer studies.. Yes i saw him. But i didnt greeted him cos i can't recognise him at the first glimpse. Its only later then i remember his face and name. Haha Anyway u people cant blame me for being rude cos he is dressed in singlet, shorts and slippers of which he is most probably staying around that area and he is accompanying his wife marketing. Well its quite weird to see such a your lecturer dressed so casually and doing marketing rite. Hee
I just dont knoe why i kept meeting the lecturers on the streets. First i saw Dr Xu then Mr Yeo then Ms Soh followed by Mr Ngiam. Oh no looks like there are many lecturers staying in jurong area..
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