Thursday, June 29, 2006
Im back to the boring me again.... School started for sis so she got to bring her notebook to school and that means that i got no pc to play my sims since my own laptop often hanged while im playing pc games...
Anyway been learning to ride my bicycle for the past few days. It is quite embarassing for me cos there are lots of people jogging and cycling along the park connector so people are kinda staring or rather laughing at me for not being able to ride a bike. Luckily so far there are no bruises on me yet, except for a few scratches cos at least i still manage to break my fall.. Heehee But there was once when i nearly fall into the canal (There is this huge canal beside the park connector) The incident happened when im trying to test my courage by "gliding/sliding" down a slope without having to petal but before i could brake my bike, the whole bike was literally "gliding" down at such a lightning speed that i was nearly thrown into the canal and it was a great shock for my dad. Haha Its very fun and exciting issn't it. Wonder wat will i become when i fell into the canal. Haha Maybe u can see my name on the Straits times headline as Girl fell into drain while learning to cycle... LOL
Its a shame that i still can't balance myself yet and i kept leaning to my left. Think i may need some time to learn. Jia You!
By the way, i did something naughty at the hair salon yesterdae. Guess wat i did? Nope i wouldnt be telling u the answer now. Anyway be prepared to see a new me on graduation day! ;) Cheeky smile*
i blogged @
2:21 PM
Monday, June 26, 2006
Yippee!! My dad bought me my first bicycle and i'm going to learn how to cycle! Well im soooo excited cos by the time i am able to cycle, i can go to east coast and even pulau ubin for cycling trips. Heehee no more envying of people that can cycle. Muhahaha. Anyway bought the bicycle from Carrefour in Suntec last saturday. It was my dad's once a month sat off day so we went for our family outing. It has been a long time since we went to suntec, saw quite a number of new shops. Anyway didnt manage to buy much except for the bicycle and some groceries cos its the Great Singapore Sales and there were throngs and throngs of people. Particularly in some areas, it can be soo crowded till i cant even breathe properly.....
Anyway after suntec, we went to Marina South for steamboat and BBQ dinner. It was our first time dinning there so we were quite surprised to see so many youngsters cos i always remembered marina south for kite flying, bowling and arcade but it can be quite "ulu" too. Initially we wanted to go to Zhen Fa's but we were "pulled" up bus by another restaurant operator. The food was so-so and its was bloody cheap. Just imagine u can get the same food as seoul garden but u paid less than half the price of Seoul Garden's.
By the way, it was quite fun too cos u can cook up a storm even if u dont really know how to cook. And my mum kept adding cubes of butter cos she claims that without the butter, the foods tend to burn easily. It is better to eat oily food than burnt carcinogenic food. I regreted telling her that burnt food contains carcinogenic agents cos it seems that my mum is more health consious now. LOL
However, for those clean freaks like me, it can be rather disgusting cos i think the hygiene is rather not up to standard. Anyway thank goodness that i didnt get any food poisoning but a boost to my stomach immunity. Heehee
i blogged @
12:52 PM
Monday, June 19, 2006
Today's rainy and gloomy weather seems to fit my mood perfectly. I woke up with a bad feeling cos I didn't have a night of good sleep and the rate my heart is beating is making me breatheless.
Just read one of my buddies' blog. She states in her blog that she intend to commit sucide by swallowing a battery. I'm at loss of words to describe my feelings. It hurts me to see my friend trying to give up her life that easily whereby hundreds of paitients are battling for their lives in the ICU. Life is precious and we shouldnt give it up that easily. I understand that life can be unpredictable and there are many ups and downs in our life but we should try to embrace each challenge in our life and take it as a lesson. Take me for example. I once dreamt of going to a uni straight after my poly studies but it seems that my results wasnt really good for me to qualify for local uni but i took it in my stride and i am ready to work for a couple of years since my parents cant afford to send me overseas. But look at what happened! I failed my ECG pre-employment checkup and for no apparent reason, the doctors started to suspect that i got heart murmur and other heart diseases. All the follow ups dragged for months and i even lost the job i applied for. In the end, i was transferred to another dept and the dept head started to sound kinda unfriendly when i called her. Although she told me that its not my fault but deep in my heart i knew they are blaming me for causing them so much trouble. Looking back at the things that happened to me, i can only tell myself. Its life...
But somehow it seems that the days of worries and frustration has taken a toll of my mental health. Sometimes i just felt that I am suddenly at loss. I dont knoe whether i should have taken this step at the very beginning. Yesterday in the middle of the night, i woke up crying from a nightmare. Tears just continuously stream down my cheeks for no apparent reason. I dreamt of a middle age lady whom face i cant see clearly hitting and pushing me away and at the same time, she is shouting: " u useless girl! U are not fit to work in SGH, go away! go to elsewhere! U are not fit to work with us!" And no matter how i begged her, she just kept pushing and kicking me away. I have no idea why i had this kind of dream, maybe i must have suffered a nervous breakdown....
i blogged @
12:22 PM
Friday, June 16, 2006
I jus got a breaking news from my dept head. I'm transferred to the other dept. This is not what i expected when i called my dept head this morning. There is a mixture of feeling in me now. Its a mixture of disappointment, excited, relieve and frustration.....
Disappointment because i have been transferred to another dept that i didnt apply initially, its the histopath dept and i am required to assist the pathologists in processing and staining of the specimens. This is because all my follow ups have been dragging for months and since they cant afford to wait anymore, they have employed another person to replace me. In addition, I was also told that i will only be transferred back to the original dept after the pathologists think that i have the capability to interprete the slides or there is a vacancy in the cytology dept.
Excited because i got the chance to work with the human organs. Although its going to be gruesome, i do look forward to it.
Relieve because first i was told not to worry too much cos they still got a pending place for me. Second, i actually dont like to look at the slides all day long. Its going to be very tedious and i got to undergo very comprehensive training. It will be good to start everything from basics.
Lastly, frustration because i am angry with myself for being such a useless person. Why cant my heart cooperate a bit. If there is nothing wrong with my ECG, i wouldnt have to go for all the tests then i wouldn't have lost my original job to other person.
i blogged @
12:58 PM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Went to Johor yesterday for a shopping spree with my mum and her auntie friends. In case u are wondering why i chose to shop in JB since there is already the great singapore sales, the things in JB are cheaper and the food is nicer too. LOL. Anyway, we went to holiday plaza and The Store and i managed to bought myself 2 blouses and 1 shorts and some goceries.
i tried looking for the jacket and white blouse (for grad ceremony) but cant find one. Perhaps i may have gotten myself a jacket if im slimmer cos the sizes are so small. But it is also reasonable since most of the malaysians are rather peitite in size. Anyway, one of the shopkeeper even suggested i having one tailor made instead and he told me thats going to cost me RM300. Oh my god, its like 140 something sing dollars. I'm not going to spend so much on a jacket that i will only wear it once or twice. So i shall go for the $69 jacket from Dorathy Perkins.
After that, we went for dinner at tebrau hawker centre. Ordered about 9 dishes and including drinks, it only cost us around 100RM. Oh well, its only 40 something sing dollars for the 7 of us. Cheap rite. If im staying in woodlands and i drive a car, i will definetely go there often. Haha
Btw, i have been observing the passerbys when my mum is doing her shoppings. And this is wat i saw from the actions of Singaporeans and maybe tats how the Malaysians identify Singaporeans.
1) We like to say: "Aiyo so cheap leh.. Buy. Buy. this can buy wan".
2) We got the blur look or typical look on our faces.
3) We often load our trolleys with tonnes of chocolates and biscuits and groceries cos its cheaper there (normal malaysians wouldnt buy that much)
4) We tend to go for the chewing gums first in the supermarkets.
5) We tend to order a whole table of dishes but wouldnt finish all the food.
6) We tend to dress casually (shorts and T shirts)
7) We dont understand Malay so sometimes its like "duck talking to chicken"
However the above is only for laughter, dont take it too serious k. Hee
i blogged @
1:03 PM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Sometimes i got the feeling that no one understands me at all. This morning, i'm discussing the uni issues with my mum and she told me not to day dream too much. She was "suaning" me that although i literally got myself a job, i can only start work after the doc certified that im fit to work. She also "suan" me that i got no one to blame but to blame on my luck and bad health. Alright, its not my fault rite (except for obesity but my suspected heart murmur has nothing to do with obesity, its something to do with the genes), no one wishes to have this type of things to happen on themselves. Anyway, i'm not going to leave it to my fate. Fate shall always be in my hands. Im going to work towards my goal and no one is going to stop me. Even if SGH has decided not to employ me anymore, i will still look for other jobs. Yes i will do it!
i blogged @
10:33 AM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
I got dragged out of my bed at 4.45am this morning for the tree top walk organised by my mum's company. Anyway its kinda awkward for my sis and i cos we dont knoe most of the people there except some aunties from my mum's clique and one thing i noticed was that her company people are not very closed knitted in the sense that there were many cliques and the people juz choose to hang out with their gang of members. The more ridiculous thing is that the aunties and uncles love to gossip and "suan people". For example they were "suaning" one of their junior supervisor for being able to arrive so early whereby she is always 20 mins late when she report for work and they were very unhappy with her for always stating her reporting time as 8a.m in the logbook eventhough she arrived at 8.20am. Sian* Its stupid rite... why bother so much whereby u can juz suggest to the HR dept to install punch card machine and people cant cheat anymore. Frankly speaking, i dont like her company cos its looks like their company politics is very serious. Although, i once wished to join my mum's company, its not the same for me anymore.
As for the trail, it's kinda hell but it is at least slightly better than the trail @ Macritchie reservoir. One of the slopes in Macritchie can be so steep till it is capable of sending u to all fours. Anyway the suspension bridge is very well built. For those people with heights phobia, u dont have to worry too much cos both sides of the bridge are lined with strong nettings and unlike normal suspension bridge, this one is so sturdy that it wouldnt even shake when i try jumping on it. LOL its kinda boring rite. For me, i do prefer the bridge to swing a little, then it will be more exciting. Heehee But there were lots of stairs and the routes are quite rocky and steep so by the time i complete the whole trail in 2 hrs and 30 mins, lactic acids are already flooding my leg muscles. My legs are damm sour... Ouch! I think this walk shall be my first and last unless there are people who are humorous and chatty going along, otherwise the 4.8 km walk can be quite boring.
i blogged @
3:06 PM
Friday, June 09, 2006
Yea. I just got myself a tempt housekeeping job. Bet u wouldn't believe me LOL! Actually my aunt whose is in charge of all the household chores has gone for holiday in Bangkok again. So i am left with the housekeeping job for the next few days till monday. And that means i got to clean the house, cook lunch and dinner, wash, dry and fold the clothes Sian* Oh how i envy her.. i also want to go for a short holiday but i cant go at the moment cos im still waiting for my dept head to call me to report for work. However, she didnt mention when she is going to call and im like "hanging in the mid air again"......Damm it. Anyway, it looks like i will be lunching alone. Dont knoe wat to cook for lunch... perhaps fried rice with tomatoe sauce will be nice. Hee
i blogged @
12:10 PM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Its fantastic! Didnt know having a shower can be so shiok! I didnt had a shower for the past 24 hours unless i want to get electrocuted by the ECG electrodes. As a self confessed clean freak whom can shower up to 3 times a day, not being able to shower for a day is very very terrible for me. Anyway, i just went to National Heart Centre to remove the patches and electrodes. My goodness! When the med tech helped me remove the tapes and patches, the patches are damm sticky and its hurts like hell! Nvmind, the whole thing is finally over. Finally, i can get some rest.....
Btw, i saw quite a number of youngsters like me going for the test but majority are still schooling or got referred by the NS so when i told them i am being sent there by staff clinic, the pple are kinda surprised. Anyway, the med tech there are very friendly. One asked me abt my course and even told me what is the life working in hospital and stuffs like that. Although, most of them are from sp cardiac tech, i didnt get to meet any familiar faces but its still a relief. I cant imagine having someone familiar performing the procedures on me. Hee
i blogged @
12:12 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Woohoo! I felt like a sucide bomber now.. yea all thanks to the tapes, wires, patches and a device from the 24 hrs ECG. Basically, the cardiac tech sticked patches and tapes on my chest like nobody's business. Sure it's going to hurt like hell when i remove it tmr. Ouch!
Earlier on, went for the echocardiogram and the 24 hrs ECG. Well the echo thingy was quite scary especially when the cardiac tech want me to change into the hospital gown. Later she dimmed the lights and started doing the ultrasound thingy on my chest. Too bad, i cant see or understand a thing cos they wanted me to lie on my left side whereby the screen is on my right. But i got a shock when the cardiac tech accidentally pressed on the volume button and all of a sudden i heard my heart going lup dup lup dup. Oh it was quite fast.. Anyway she switched off the sound after a few seconds claiming that the volume is too loud and it might scare the paitient. LOL
Anyway besides the heart, she also scanned my stomach and the windpipe (for which reason, i 've no idea). Its quite interesting to see the wall of my stomach contracting and relaxing... Heehee. However, results will only be out on 19 july which is still a long way to go.. hope things will be alright.
i blogged @
5:59 PM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Met up with my cousins at town yesterdae and while waiting for poseidon to start at 1.05pm, we went to taka for lunch at Pepper Lunch. It was my first time there so i was like a "mountain tortoise". Heehee Ordered Salmon pepper rice but i didnt like it cos its too buttery for me and the worst was i added too much garlic soya sauce. In the end, the whole dish is so salty that my tongue kinda hurt. And wat a coincidence, i met Bing Hong there too. He was dining alone so my cousins suggested me to ask him to join us but i didnt cos it can be quite pai seh for him rite.
Poisedon was quite a nice show packed with all the thrills and effects. But i dont really like the ending, it seems to me that the director jus wants to end the show asap. I do prefer the show to have some ending like months after they were being rescued, there was a memorial service for the victims and dylan johns was together with maggie and the kid, jennifer and chris married and stuffs like that...
Anyway after the show, we walked from cine to wheellocks place to browse in zara and then from zara to shaw to robinsons and back to plaza sing. OMG! our legs hurt like mad, think tonnes of sugar wouldnt even help at all. Browsed in dorathy pekins in ps for my jacket but looks like they are out of stock so we kinda waste my energy walking there. Nvmind, better to treat it as exercise.
Todae is the 1st of june, i hope it shall be a fresh start for me. Anyway, my dept head called me this morning. I was so thrilled to recieve her call cos at last i can pour all my woes and worries to her. It was a relief to hear her assuring me not to worry too much as she will see how to get things right for me. Yipee! That means i dont have to look for other jobs at the moment!
i blogged @
2:02 PM
