Thursday, March 02, 2006
28th is the last day of feb and it also unofficially marks the end of my poly life.... Although my last paper is finally over and i can say goodbye to the past 3 years of furious mugging, the feeling of relieve is not there and instead im feeling rather sad and worried.
U may ask me why worry so much?
Perhaps im kind of a paranoid person.. i tend to worry about my future and the decision i got to make... ya the time has come.. I got to find myself a job but in the meanwhile i got to apply for uni. Ok i have been asking myself... why choose the overseas study path which is really making my life so miserable... why cant i juz enrol myself in the NIE course and become a bio teacher. But at the same time, i m having second thoughts... if i were to graduate with a degree in education (science), issnt that means i got to be a teacher for the rest of my life. I knew i m rather an impatient person and i don really think i can fulfill the qualities of being a good and caring teacher.
On the other hand, overseas study is a better choice but where do i get such a huge sum of money... Especially for Uk which is going to cost me 40k... and with my family's financial capabilities, think i can only loan up to 20k for my education loan. 20k? it's not even enough for Australia!!!
Been browsing thru' the job adverstisements and most of them require at least 1 year of work experiences.. What the shit! we got only 6 weeks of work experience and mind u is 6 weeks and not 6 mths! Who is going to employ one with only 6 weeks of experience... Sian*
Anywayz, i really don know what to do with myself. Why have i landed myself in such a pile of shit! Why have i chosen such a course that requires high qualification (whereby in the near future maybe degree holders are only qualified to become test tube washers and PhD holders are a norm)? If in the first place i were to choose other courses such as biz, perhaps i still can go to SIM uni... WHY???? WHY???? WHY????
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