Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Reflected on the things that happened to me last night and i wasnt able to sleep well. Looking back, my first job hunt experience was indeed an unpleasant one. However, I should say its a blessing in disguise cos it has taught me a wonderful lesson. In this society, everything can be unfair and dark of which people maybe constantly at each other's throat.
Admit things are still very fresh for me. Although i have worked in a law firm for 6 mths and i have seen office politics of which i got backstabbed once by a co-worker, I dont have enough working experience so i tends to take things too seriously and also trust people too easily. Sent an email to mr yeo and he said that we should be mature enough to accept the fact that things tend to be unfair/unethical and we should be able to move on.
Ya its a piece of invaluable advice. There is no point for me to cry over the spill milk. Its time for me to forget all the unpleasant experience and start my job hunting all over again. :)
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Monday, March 27, 2006
Haix* This morning got a bad new regarding the pending interview. I wasnt shortlisted... Waited for 3 weeks and thats the outcome.. Im really very disappointed and depressed... I juz dont knoe whats wrong with me. Is it my attitude problem or issit my poor interview skills? The problem is I wasnt slacking away and i ve been looking for jobs since my last paper but i lost three jobs in a row.. Things arent going as smoothly as i expected. SHITTY BAD LUCK!
Anyway, hope the bad things have come to an end and i can get job soon...
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Thursday, March 23, 2006
Im so proud of myself. Heehee Cos i manage to pluck up enough courage to make the call regarding the pending interview. Oh well they say they will confirm with me by this wk. Okie so that means by this wk i will knoe whether am i employed or remain jobless again and i wouldnt be hanging in the mid air anymore. Phew... Relieve..
Saw an ornament at Bugis with the printed words: "Chocolates and sisters make life more bearable". But i strongly disagree cos chocolates will make me fat and my sister is the most horrible person.
My goodness! she has been "suaning" me since the last day of exams. She kinda looked down on me and she even claimed that although med tech pple got to mug so hard but it turns out that our salary is even lower than other courses and worst still its so difficult to find jobs for fresh graduates like us. OMG! How i wish i can sew her mouth up! Anyway that really motivates me to work harder and prove her wrong. I believe there will be a day for me to take revenge!
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Results were finally out yesterdae! I got my first distinction in my 3 years of poly life and an A for my project! Yippee Hurray!!!!!!!!!! It was really a surprise cos i juz expected a B or B+ for both modules and as for the rests are B and B+. Anyway i am very pleased with my results except for that stupid CSW which i got a C+. Yucks! It juz kinda tarnished my results slip.... Well at least its a relieve to knoe the results and that means that i can apply uni of Melbourne.. Juz hope i can get in.. But at the moment, the most important thing is to get myself a job cos im really desperate for $$$$. heehee
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Well its going to be a very short blog. I dont really want to vent my frustrations in my blog but sorrie i am extremely stressed out.. So do bear with me.
Counting down 3 days to thursday cos thursday marks the last day of 2 weeks. Normally the potential employer will follow up within 2 wks after the interview. But till now i haven even recieve a single call so that may means that my chances of getting the job is getting slimmer and slimmer. Sigh*
Anyway results releasing tmr, getting jittery.... Dont knoe whether can i sleep well tonight. Juz hoping that the results are okie....
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Monday, March 20, 2006
Besides pure hardwork, i do believe that luck played quite an important role in our life too.
Been feeling rather miserable cos i juz lost the tempt job from IRAS. Actually i have no one to blame but to blame on my stubbornness to live by my principles. As i promised to wait for the call, i cant confirm with the IRAS people. Its like being tied in the middle.. Anyway think the chances of me recieving the call is very unlikely since it has already been more than a wk.
Perhaps im kinda unlucky these few days so things are not going as smoothly as i expected. Sent a couple of resumes but so far no one has called me up yet. Been hearing from sc that she is also suffering from the same "fate" too. Sian*
Anyway juz hope that i can brush off all the bad luck and things can start afresh!
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
I dreaded lonely nights cos these are the times that i tend to let myself drift away in my thoughts... Been reflecting on my past doings and i am toying with this particular thought of whether i have taken a wrong step in my life. I cant help but to have this feeling in me cos i juz felt like my future is hanging in the midair.
Is being loyal to somebody and putting ur heart and soul into whatever task u have been assigned to worth it? The sense of loyalty in me has juz caused me to lost something in my life.
I have began to see the dirty side of this society. Everyone do not appear as innocent as they look or in other words, they are complicated. There is never once will they allow u to read their mind. People may sweet talk u but deep in their mind they are thinking of ways to backstab u. There is no such things as free lunch in this world and things used to sound too good to be true. I knew we cant have the best of both worlds but at least i am juz hoping that i can get the best of one world.
Anyway the puzzled feeling is still tingling inside me. Well think its time to grow up and get myself exposed to this society.
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Friday, March 17, 2006
Went to East Coast yesterdae for jas's surprise birthday party.. Actually her boyfriend planned everything and his family even helped out to prepare all the BBQ stuffs but she is unaware of anything at all. Oh well maybe that's wat we call a surprise mah. Her boyfriend eventually brought her to the BBQ pit and she was blindfolded so when she saw us there. She was touched to tears. Okie since i know her from primary 2, jas is someone who dont tear easily except once during PE lesson that she got hit by the football... so yesterdae's event must be very touching and sweet. Anyway kit and i ate some beehoon, curry chicken, 1 chicken wing and 2 prawns each.. As we were feeling rather awkward cos it was suppose to be a family event and my mum kept reminding me not to stay too late... we decided to leave at 7 something and i reached home at 9 something which is already considered quite late for my mum...
Anyway its really nice to see jas getting along so well with her boyfriend's family members. Looks like wedding bells ringing soon.. Heehee
Anyway things are getting kinda jittery for me cos im still waiting for the most important phone call from my ITP place. I have been staring at my phone for the past few weeks but to date no one has called me up. Perhaps if i were to continue staring at it, i may get a mental collapse soon.
Read a newspaper article on riot in Thailand which includes an excerpt on the Thai King's advice to the public of which i find it rather meaningful and it conveyed the message that violence cant solve any problems. Here are part of the excerpts:
When people use violence, they are not aware. In the end, they do not know why they hit each other or what problems they want to solve. They only want to win. And who will win? No one. It is dangerous. There is only defeat. All sides suffer defeat. All confrontational parties suffer defeat.
What is the use in being proud of your victory when you are on top of ruins and wrecks? So both sides should refrain from confrontating each other and turn to each other...
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Been watching a korean drama on family divorce and trianglular love affair thingy. Ya typical korean drama i can say. Actually this drama is about this woman whose husband had an affair. As submissive korean housewife, she has to endure all these things and to stand by her husband at all times. However, it turns out that this housewife's college friend who has been secretly in love with her for 12 years decided to woo her so as to get her out of that horrible marriage. In the end, she decided to stand by her husband and give her husband a second chance..
Frankly speaking, i had saw several of this type of cases when i was working in the law firm. If im the housewife, i will first get myself a PI to snap pixs of the husband and his mistress then submit the photos in court, sue them for adultery so that the chances of getting the custody of the child is higher. At the same time, make sure u get a one time huge sum of matrimony fees cos men normally will delay the matrimony fees if they were to pay in installments and that also make sure to burnt a big deep hole in his pocket! After the divorce, i will go straight to the guy and show the former husband that what he can do, we women can do too.
However, my mum was like grumbling how can i have such a thinking. As a wife especially those already got kids, they should be paitent with the husband and then talk to him. By the time he is sick of his mistress, he will definetely come back to u. OMG! I juz cant imagine my mum is that submissive and naive.
Anyway, we juz cant understand each other's thinking and thats' already bothering our communications. I can say we are starting to drift apart from each other... I used to talk to my mother on everything in life and in school but nowadays it looks like there is a communication breakdown. She dont even bother to listen to me and she is like nagging at me everyday that nobody wants to employ me, slacking at home is like wasting my life, and that i might as well work in IRAS instead of waiting for the call. Moreover, she even stopped giving me allowances and im practically surviving on my allowances. Shit!
OK! I'm enough of all these things.. i juz dont understand why those people are taking such a long time to reply me. Telling me whether i 'm shortlisted or not is as simple as ABCs issn't. Even my friend got a job already. Yes im really sick of waiting...
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Been watching a korean drama on family divorce and trianglular love affair thingy. Ya typical korean drama i can say. Actually this drama is about this woman whose husband had an affair. As submissive korean housewife, she has to endure all these things and to stand by her husband at all times. However, it turns out that this housewife's college friend who has been secretly in love with her for 12 years decided to woo her so as to get her out of the horrible marriage. In the end, she decided to stand by her husband and give her husband a second chance..
Frankly speaking, i had seen several of this type of cases when i was working in the law firm. If im the housewife, i will first get myself a PI to snap pixs of the husband and his mistress then submit the photos in court, sue them for adultery so that the chances of getting the custody of the child is higher. At the same time, make sure u get a one lump sum of matrimony fees cos men normally will delay the matrimony fees if they were to pay in installments and that also make sure to burnt a big deep hole in his pocket! After the divorce, i will go straight to the guy and show the former husband that what he can do, we women can do too.
However, my mum was like grumbling how can i have such a thinking. As a wife especially those already got kids, they should be paitent with the husband and then talk to him. By the time he is sick of his mistress, he will definetely come back to u. OMG! I juz cant imagine my mum is that submissive and naive.
Anyway, we juz cant understand each other's thinking and thats' already bothering our communications. I can say we are starting to drift apart from each other... I used to talk to my mother on everything in life and in school but nowadays it looks like there is a communication breakdown. She dont even bother to listen to me and she is like nagging at me everyday that nobody wants to employ me, slacking at home is like wasting my life, and that i might as well work in IRAS instead of waiting for the call. Moreover, she even stopped giving me allowances and im practically surviving on my allowances. Shit!
OK! I'm enough of all these things.. i juz dont understand why those people are taking such a long time to reply me. Telling me whether i 'm shortlisted or not is as simple as ABCs issn't. Even my friend got a job already. Yes im really sick of waiting...
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Sunday, March 12, 2006
I'm so frustrated with my biological clock.... Its there anyway i can adjust my biological clock so that i dont get sleepy at 11pm cos i felt asleep halfway through watching The Pianist on channel 5 yesterday! ARGH! I was so eager to watch the show and i even rushed home for it but it turns out that i only watched the first 60 mins of the 3hrs show.. Anyway my sis finished the whole show and she said its a really nice show. What a pity....
Went to orchard yesterdae afternoon to accompany my mum and sis for their haircut then we went to Marche for dinner. Btw part of Marche is renovating so the layout is kinda cramped and messy now. Anyway i ordered a grilled chicken leg and baked potatoe. My mum ordered a pizza of which u can choose 5 toppings ( so as typical kiasu Singaporean, we chose all the five most expensive toppings!) and my sis ordered the soft shell crab.. As u pple kinda knoe my sis's size... the soft shell crab is too little a serving for her so she was like grumbling to my mum on how i tried to persuade her to order the soft shell crab instead of ordering the same things as me. In the end my mum gave up so she got me to order the ham and cheese crepe for my sis of which i also tried some of it. Actually its kinda sinful to eat that cos its so creamy and cheesy. OMG!!! Calories.... Anyway i don like creamy and chessy stuff so the smell of the crepe already kinda "toxicated" me. Luckily i have my rootbeer to cover the smell.
As my mum didnt knoe that bottle of snapple cost 4.50 bucks, she was complaining on how ex it is when she saw the receipt. Oops think its my fault for not telling her the price.
Went to Taka afterwards... Planning to buy a pair of Jeans for my mum's birthday so we went to ZARA cos its so crowded and we thought there is a sale going on but there is no sales and the clothes are quite costly. 135 bucks for a pair of jeans is juz out of qns for us. Anyway we passed by the Camper store and a pair of sneakers caught my eye. Went to check out the price and i saw the wrong price tag. At first i thought it was 25 bucks only but it turns out to be 325 bucks. Luckily i didnt asked the sales girl to get my size. I juz cant imagine paying 325 bucks for a pair of sneakers. Anyway the trio of us went the Stadium and my sis managed to get a pair of Reebok casual sneakers and i got myself a pair of sandals at a discounted price of 29 bucks... normally it costs 49.90 but the girl told us they r selling the sandals at discounted price cos there were limited sizes which are mostly big sizes. So i got to thank my "big foot". Haha
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Friday, March 10, 2006
People used to say bad things will haunt u continuously but i dun think that only applies to bad things, it also applies to good things too. Following the interview at parkway, recieved a third call from IRAS which i applied for tempt job. Think those who applied should have gotten a call by todae.
Anyway.. went to another lab somewhere in kallang for an interview. Was a bit lost cos the place is a industrial park with all the factories and buildings. Took a cab there which costed me $16.50. Expensive rite... Juz imagine u woke up late then u got to rush to work in a cab. OMG!
Too bad they are employing permanent staffs so when i told them i m planning to further my studies.. the manager juz told me they may not be able to accept my application. Its okie.. Nvmind then... So now im only left wif parkway... Think its time for me to keep my fingers crossed .... hope that i will be hired.
After the interview, met yc, mc and ch at bugis. Went for lunch at pastamania and i met kit mun. I was kinda surprised cos i didnt knoe she is working there. All thanks to kit mun, all of us enjoyed a 30% off our total cost. so kinda saved some $$$. Heehee. Actually i wasnt really comfortable dining there cos its kinda heartening to see my best friend working so hard and even serving us while we are like dining and enjoying ourselves down there.
After lunch, i suggested going to arcade for a "car race". Haha didnt knoe ch is so pro in the shooting game. Ya she won both the car race and the shooting game. I should have filmed her posture down cos she really looked like a professional killer. Haha CH maybe u can consider that as a job option. ;)
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
Well todae is a long and tiring day. First i went for my first so called"interview" at parkway lab cos the manager called me up yesterdae. Actually my mind wasnt working well this morning cos i had a bad nite of sleep (too stressed up), but the moment i stepped into the lab, memories of my attachment days kept flashing through my mind. Nice feeling to see the familar faces again. Anyway, juz hope my interview is fine and i didnt really screwed things up.
After the interview, met yc at ya kun @tiong bahru plaza.. Ordered a coffee to perk me up and also 2 slices of toast. Dun really like the toast and coffee cos they were so sweet. Think its due to the influence of my father (he is mild diabetic so doc advised him to cut down on sugar intake), nowadays i prefer coffee with less sugar. Afterwhich we went to bugis, hoping to collect my phone back cos its had been sent for repair for a couple of months but to date no one actually called me up to collect my phone... What a disappointment!the girl told me my LCD screen was spoilt and they got to ship the spare parts from overseas and somehow shipment was delayed so i got to wait for a couple of weeks. Sian*
Browsed at Kino and saw the brokeback mountain bk @16.80 bucks. Wow expensive issnt? Then i remembered i saw the ad on MPH 20% discount so i suggested going to citylink mall
Went to citylink mall MPH.. And GUESS WAT! Brokeback mountain is sold out. ARGH!!! So we went to Raffles city MPH cos the staff told us stock is still available there. Luckily i manage to grab a copy...
Went to marina sq for lunch cos yc was complaining that Raffles city food court sucks... Its was 3pm already... with my spinning head and groaning stomach... finally i can grab a bite... Was eating halfway when i recieved a call from another lab. Yes! Another interview at 12pm tmr.
Well im really glad that people are responding to my resume.. Juz hope tmr interview will be fine too.. :)
Muhaha.. i managed to drag yc to jurong point wif me cos i need to get a lip gloss from MISSHA. And when we were choosing the colours, yc kept insisting to the sales girl to get me some really pink and glittering stuff. OMG! I juz cant imagine putting on such lip gloss. Wont my lips end up looking like hotdogs? Haha. But i end up buying a real light pink watery lip gloss and yc got a glossy and glittering one.
Btw yc saw the worng price tag! She was thinking that hers is only 6.90 but it turns out to be 11.90. Haha Saw her stonning at the cashier counter. All thanks to my sis and cousins who told me to put on some makeup or at least lip gloss for the interview cos its basic courtesy. Anyway they are biz students so appearence is really impt for them but for our field... don think people will care abt ur makeup since u r working in the four walled lab most of the time. Haha
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Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Ouch! my fingers hurt when i tries to type... Ya all thanks to sc's GI project. Been going to school on alternate days for our finger pricking routine. 9 pricks in total and we got to go to school for a total of 5 days. So theorically its going to be 45 pricks. And thats only for 60 bucks! A bit cheapo rite... nevermind anyway i dont have much things to do at home except for mopping, vacuum, cutting of fruits and i was getting a bit bored playing my sims so its quite good to go to school. At least theres someone to chit chat with..
Anyway after the finger pricking thingy, yc, ch, mc and i went to k box todae. Was happily belting out my zhou chuan xiong's song when i recieved a call from the parkway lab manager. Actually i applied for the histopatho medical technician position at mt e, but he claims that the position is filled and he got my resume from the database so he was like asking me whether i want to work in ayer rajah instead. Wow it was a surprise.. Admit that i was tongue tied at the moment and i didnt really knoe how to reply him. Haha perhaps i really sounded very sian* so he was like asking why i sounded so bo pian.... But i was really disappointed cos i applied for mt e but for goodness sake my resume ended up in ayer rajah... Haha perhaps its fated.
Btw tmr im supposed to make a trip down to ayer rajah lab to meet the manager ... so like what mr yeo loves to say.. we shall see what will happen...
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
28th is the last day of feb and it also unofficially marks the end of my poly life.... Although my last paper is finally over and i can say goodbye to the past 3 years of furious mugging, the feeling of relieve is not there and instead im feeling rather sad and worried.
U may ask me why worry so much?
Perhaps im kind of a paranoid person.. i tend to worry about my future and the decision i got to make... ya the time has come.. I got to find myself a job but in the meanwhile i got to apply for uni. Ok i have been asking myself... why choose the overseas study path which is really making my life so miserable... why cant i juz enrol myself in the NIE course and become a bio teacher. But at the same time, i m having second thoughts... if i were to graduate with a degree in education (science), issnt that means i got to be a teacher for the rest of my life. I knew i m rather an impatient person and i don really think i can fulfill the qualities of being a good and caring teacher.
On the other hand, overseas study is a better choice but where do i get such a huge sum of money... Especially for Uk which is going to cost me 40k... and with my family's financial capabilities, think i can only loan up to 20k for my education loan. 20k? it's not even enough for Australia!!!
Been browsing thru' the job adverstisements and most of them require at least 1 year of work experiences.. What the shit! we got only 6 weeks of work experience and mind u is 6 weeks and not 6 mths! Who is going to employ one with only 6 weeks of experience... Sian*
Anywayz, i really don know what to do with myself. Why have i landed myself in such a pile of shit! Why have i chosen such a course that requires high qualification (whereby in the near future maybe degree holders are only qualified to become test tube washers and PhD holders are a norm)? If in the first place i were to choose other courses such as biz, perhaps i still can go to SIM uni... WHY???? WHY???? WHY????
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